i suddenly feel tat im a good girl man.

lol.

as in i did not went out till late midnight le.

lke wat i used to do.

coz tat goondu jun's schedule is like totally different from mine.

i finished work den she start working.

or i just reached store and she's gg home liao.

and oso tat another goondu nina.

i tot i work full time liao at least got nina to acc me to crap during work.

stupid-ly.

she is selected to go to other stores for attachment.

for training for the new dunno watever system.

first she went marina center.

and now she's at east coast park.

ytd she told me she is gg to parkway aft east coast park.

wth lor~

den i ask her when she will be back in kallang.

well..

even she herself oso dunno.

yawns~

somehow or rather im like left 'alone' in the store.

sians~

so u see.

how are we one gang able to go out.

well to think back.

my last outing with them was with ismail.

the last ride i ever had till now.

hais.

is very difficult for me to forget lor.

but on the other hand.

u think i dont wana go out at night meh.

to me.

young must enjoy life mah.

but my mother will nv ever have those 'open' mindset to allow me to have more freedom.

hais.

is reallie ming ku not have freedom lor.

when den i can get my freedom?

21yrs old?

till the day i married?

hais.

i reallie got no idea.

'that's what friends are for'

the sentence is damn meaningfull.

and the song is real nice too.

jun called me early in the morning while im still in my dreams.

she need a favour from me to help her.

hmm well.

somehow dunno y i felt glad tat when she need help she rmb me.

she think of me.

coz i always tot tat she got her other friends and she neglect me.

seems like she is not tat kind of person.

hmm but..

who noes tat when she need help den she will look for me.

other den tat she dont care.

haiya suet ah~

dont think too much lah.

she is my best friend.

she is one of my friends who can understand me more den other friends.

hee.

called her just now.

same routine.

she ans.

she told me tat she will call me back.

but she did not.

for so long i had known her.

out of 10 times of her 'wait i call u back'

she will onli call me back once.

bth her.

as wat shan had tagged.

im 'FINALLY' attached.

ma chiam i got no one want.

yup tats wat i always thinking lah.

im always the swayest one who cant last a relationship long.

den u all one by one got attached.

in the past during gatherings one by one bringing bf along with u all.

somehow or rather left me alone who got no one to bring along.

did u all ever stand in my shoes and think for me?

how is the feeling like?

well think u all dunno how is the feeling is like.

actually i wana tell u all this damn long ago.

i just dunno how to tell u all.

dont have the courage to say it out.

every gathering i reallie have the urge to tell u all tat no guys are allowed.

do not bring bf.

but i did not say it.

somehow i felt tat if i do tat.

im selfish.

so i chose to be sad deep in me rather den to be selfish.

but as time goes by.

more and more gatherings.

i used to the sadness le.

the feeling is numb le.

like wat iris had said.

it had been a damn long time we ever have a 'all girls' gathering.

yup seriously i do miss those daes onli we girls de gathering.

hey~

for wat i had said above i got NO HARM k.

tat was my past feelings le.

as for now.

im happily in love.

lol.

lalala~

hee.

=P